18.sep.2023

Entry #14. BACK TO SKEWL...

first proper week of school... one huge upside is that we've only got 2 or 4 hours on mondays depending on the week, so that'll be a huge lifesaver, between having to study for tests and doing work for our diploma project. here's to hoping it'll all go well.

yesterday, on sunday, it was my birth day!!! i had a REALLY crappy day before, but yesterday went really well given the circumstances. got some little things and money. i should unpack that jump rope my dad gave me.

update i was writing this blog post in school while waiting for a class to start, and then the teacher didn't show up for half an hour and i left because some of us didn't even have seats lol. come on man. now i chillin at home :)

another thing i haven't talked out is the state my right hand was in for a while. i think i overdid it once with my drum practice pad, and the next day at work, i would feel a sort of burning pain whenever i bent my left index finger. it sort of got better for a day or so, but then it ended up lasting another 1-2 weeks. on the 5th of september i went to see a doctor about it, and there was inflammation in my index and thumb joints / tendons. the movements that would lead to pain changed over the course of time. i spent alot more time using my left hand to type, trying to rest my right as much as possible. it was... really rough for me. it's gotten better now, luckily, but i spent a while not playing or drawing much, and i HATED having to force myself to rest. i know to take the health of my hands seriously, now - i want to be able to do the thinsg i love for as long as possible.

24.aug.2023

Entry #13. summer and IT'S ALOT

HELLO THERE. nearly through summer. nearly done with my summer job. it has been... a time!!! many ups and downs. too many downs for my liking. but! i only have 6 days left, with a mostly interesting task to get done now. i'm gonna regret saying it, but: i actually want school to start again (massive mistake: the second year is gonna be much more stressful than the last). turning to TGAMM to unwind at every opportunity i get, god bless you, comfort-cartoon!

another thing that happened (only a week and a half though): i've got myself a pair of drumsticks and a practice pad! i've toyed with the idea of learning to play the drums many times before, it seems like a very fun instrument, and i listen to a lot of music with interesting drum parts. however, i didn't want to make a huge investment right away. electric drums would be quiet, and good for a beginner to get started with, but they don't let you get familiar with the real thing - and the real thing is loud as FUCK! my parents actually aren't opposed to me having a real drumkit, we do have a basement. but i'm glad to be getting a feel for how drumsticks feel in my hands quietly with a practice pad first. i'm hoping to sit at a real kit at a music store or something next week tho.

15.july.2023

Entry #12. summer and items

SUMMER'S HERE! for alot of people that means summer break. for me that means work! i did actually manage to get an apprenticeship, it just took a long ass time. i'm just glad i can get that shit done now. i'll have 1 week of rest before my second year of IT school starts. gonna be brutal. but for now, i can focus on learning and writing code. speaking of that, i'm considering learning how to connect MySQL databases to other stuff, like websites and java programs, in advance. i can't imagine how it works, so i'm interested!

another far more important update: I HAVE NEW ITEMS AND LABELS

munmun and vinyl peepy were freebies. i opened them with a friend (hi :3) and it filled me with oh so much joyous wimsy. angelpy stares back at me with such a kind face. sucklet is oh so soft, i watched some simpsons with it earlier. what wonderful creatures.

15.june.2023

Entry #11. a message to my fellow freaks (/affectionate)

this entry goes out to all the people who suffer from things like sensory problems and BFRBs, etc. things like not being able to handle everyday noises, struggling with food and fabric textures; people who pick their skin, or pull their hair, or bite their nails involuntarily.

you aren't alone and i love you. may your days be peaceful and painless ♥

20.apr.2023

Entry #10. happy weed

08.apr.2023

Entry #9. it's been a bit and other hmmm's and harumph's

my easter break is coming to a close, and i'm starting to get sad. i've been spending my days endlessly playing terraria while listening to video essays and such, occasionally taking a break from that to vc with friends. it's a state of being i would love to exist in forever, without consequence. but i can't! as the dread of going back to school and the fact i STILL have not found a place for a summer job loom over me, i just find myself hoping it won't be so bad.

you know what's also happening? THE OWL HOUSE IS FUCKINGE ENDING!!!!
almost a year after amphibia, another wonderful disney cartoon is airing its final episode. regardless of what happens to luz and co and whether or not i agree with it from a writing standpoint, it'll probably make me cry just like the funny frog cartoon.
i've written about this in the interests page already i'm pretty sure, but once again, i can't help but lament what the owl house season 3 could have been. nearly 2 dozen episodes of luz's friends from the boiling isles getting to know her home! her world!! that could have been SO fucking cool. we could have gotten so much character development that isn't just briefly talked about as best as they could out of necessity, but rather indepth, episode-long exploration of it.
don't get me wrong, i love what they've done with season 3 so far, and i'm going to watch the episode and have a lot of fun. i have much hope for the ending with that they've set up so far. still, i'm sad. i'm sad!!!

that's just reminded me of when i stayed up late writing my fucking manifesto for amphibia. that shit was crazy. i did turn that into a webpage at some point, maybe i'll make a seperate shrine for amphibia at some point and put my sacred tome in there (or atleast an edited version of it. i'm pretty sure reading it now i'd probs cringe at a bunch of it.)

i've been meaning to look into the ghost of m- ...... ghost of molly mcgee? ghost AND molly mcgee? i always fuckin forget. that. i'm gonna watch that at some point, probably soon, and see how i like it. you know, to fill the cartoon filled-hole in my heart.

09.mar.2023

Entry #8. ? ? ?

you know how it be. the grind never stops. i'm getting closer though i swear. it's gonna look so poggers. i also wanna make a seperate page to talk abt music

06.mar.2023

Entry #7. ???

i'm trying to finish the interests page currently. genuinely really like the format of it, with the changing background and whatnot, but holy shit, am i gonna have a fucking mountain of html files if i add more than i already have

i'm not sure if this is a good idea. THIS IS SO FUCKING MANIES.

music pick of the day: Doku by Hakushi Hasegawa

04.mar.2023

Entry #6. pagez

we started doing html in school (wow!). i've made my first page, check it out here!!

and yeah, one of the styles on there is very reminiscent of my home page here. i couldn't help myself.

03.mar.2023

Entry #5. BOY

look at this thing. i got him from Fangamer. that's all

music pick of the day: DEVIL NEXT DOOR by Frost Children

25.feb.2023

Entry #4. modelling

making a scene in bryce yesterday left me wanting more. i'll put one of the images here, but i'll also slap it on the art page. i wanna make a big scene, inspired by aphex twin's vordhosbn. i'm making a simple train in blender rn, so i'll have to figure out how to import that into bryce afterwards. i want traintracks and skyscrapers and a far away horizon!!! this is gonna take me a while.

24.feb.2023

Entry #3. thinking bigly

interests page bothers me. it's so fucking LONG. my photography and art pages are also really long, but with those i don't really mind. i wrote a whole lot of text for a bunch of interests that i don't necessarily want to throw out... but i also want alot more images n stuff! buncha shit all over the place !!

the way i'm picturing it right now, there would be a main boxes on the page. on the left i just kind of list things i like, maybe divided into different sections, and on the right, there's a bunch of buttons to load in different iframes depending on what you click. i think that would be pretty nifty, is this something i should make a simple prototype of at near midnight? probably not. will i? maybe!

update: i did. im tired

i'm realizing also that i should probably compress more images on my website, especially background images. those suckers take a good few seconds to load in, which i don't particularly enjoy

21.feb.2023

Entry #2. Life's

i am writing this sitting in accounting class (THE SUCKS HALF!!!!) i could fall asleep. luckily i get out early today.

we have to do 8 weeks of apprentice-work so we can actually graduate from school. i MIGHT have found a place! thrilled and very scared. looking for jobs is dreadful. thinking about having to do an interview is ALSO dreadful. as much as i think getting some work experience in a field i'm actually interested in (AND STUDYING FOR) could be really helpful and insightful, i would much rather just be able to chill in my summer holidays.

something that's insane: it's BRIGHT out in the morning. going to school in winter is incredibly strange, especially if you're there from 8a.m to 5.p.m like me. you go in when it's pitch black outside, and you go out when the sun is setting, or later. lots more sunlight now. i should catch some of that.

i seem to always work on this website in bursts. i didn't do anything over my semester break. i wish i could take another week off, gawd.

gonna eat lunch now. gootbye

1.jan.2023

Entry #1. WTF!!!

holy shit! new year's here! it's gonna be fucking rough but im gonna try my best.

i did say i wanted this website up by new years eve, but i wont quite manage that. maybe later or tomorrow! idk

udpate: i got it up today!! hello world :D